Why?Why do I love what hurts me the most? Why do I miss it, why can't I let go? Why can't I breath and why can't I smile? Why am I itching to run to him for miles?Remind me, never fall in love again.It's not worth the longing, rejection, and pain. Keep me from feelings, they just make me weak.Keep me from mountains, I'll jump off the peak.Why did I expect to make it at all?I don't even hope that I'll survive the fall. The stupidest part is the fact I still care.I still miss, I still long, I still wish you were there. I still want to change, to be more like those you love.I'd grow my hair, bleach it, and straighten it long. I'd wear earrings and lose weight and stop wearing black. I don't want to, but I would, if I could just have you back.